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6 - a mistake
It was my first sesshin and, before the first day was over, I was convinced I couldn't make it. My husband’s turn for dokusan came that afternoon. He asked Suzuki Roshi to see me instead.
“This is all a mistake," I told Roshi. "I can't do this; I just came to be with my husband."
“There is no mistake," he insisted. “You may leave, of course, but there's no place to go."
--- Fran Tribe (RIP), Tassajara, 1967.